Last day at SAU, a year ago today!

A year ago today was my last day of work at Spring Arbor University. It seems like yesterday and it seems like a long time ago. I don't miss the work part of it - but I do miss the people aspect of it. I find it hard to believe that it's been a year and that soon my little guy will be a year old. Sigh. I just really wish I could slow things down sometimes!

Being at home with Demani is what I thought it would be and in some ways it's a lot I didn't expect:

• I didn't realize the days would go so quickly! I thought the hours would just drag by....
• I didn't know it would be so fun.
• I didn't think it would be this hard.
• I didn't know I could love this much.
• It used to be a good day was not taking a shower until 12pm. Now I consider it a rough day if I am getting cleaned up at 12pm...
  
• I never used to consider going to the grocery store by myself a luxury.
  
• I didn't know I could worry about so many little things, but when it's about Demani all of a sudden it's a bunch of big things.
  
• I didn't know that motherhood would make me a more confident woman.
• I didn't know I would have to work that much harder to be the wife I want to be for Mathwon.
  
• I didn't realize that working without earning a paycheck could be so rewarding.
• I didn't know how many times I would do the same thing over and over and over.

I mentioned this to Mathwon the other day. I said, "You know that's the thing about staying home, I feel like I do the same things over and over and over." He looked over at Demani having a blast in the pack and play and said "Yes, but it is the only thing that you can do over and over that transforms that little boys life." You've hear the term, burst into tears? Well , that is exactly what I did. The tears came due to the truth of Mathwon's words and because of the fact that Mathwon so values and "gets" what I do each day, even if it's chasing a baby all day and nothing else. I am very blessed. Undeservedly so.

Demani's new stuffed animal.